I didn’t know what to do

when I was going though this pain.

I thought it would get better,

But my heart was framed.

Looking in your eyes,

I saw a burining flame.

I saw the hurt, the anger

I saw the pain behind.

Why was I the only one put through this?

Was I the child you loved the least?

You’ve scarred me for life…

And I can’t trust easily.

Was this your plan for my life, O Lord?

Are my struggles for your glory?

I can’t understand my past

without any closure.

Mama, why did you never stop him?

Didn’t you love me the same?..

Why was I the chosen one

 To walk along the broken road?

Am I the unloved one?

My plan was to make him happy

so the pain would fade away,

But instead it made the beating stay

A. Little. Longer.

I had always wanted to be daddy’s little girl

I thought this was just a faze,

Before I’d become his world

But this was just a fantasy.

In reality,

Id always be the target.

The bullseye was to see me cry;

The hurt behind my eyes.

Was this your plan for my life, O Lord?

Are my struggles for your glory?

I can’t understand my past

without any closure.

Looking back I know

I should have said something

But I was young and scared.

I loved him,

Even though I never saw his love.

I tried to face my fears head on.

I thought that it would make me strong,

But instead it made me weaker

In my heart.

No closure.

3 years later.

Still no answer.

When will the nightmare cease?