I'm losing myself, I'm losing mind
Losing the left I want, leaving so much behind
As time and I walk together, but I am reluctant
To leave everything so quickly as I lament
For the loss of all, the one thing that I wanted
The thing that I fought for against her conscience
Waiting and trying for all of this time
Creating and dying for someone to be mine
Watching her leave, my while life out the window
After all the ground we have made, and all we have been through
It all becomes history and put on hold
That day my heart will begin to grow cold
A bitterness of losing everything I need
So into an unsure future I shall lead
Into this darkness, an old darkness friend
Of my darkest of hearts and my happiness decend
Finding memories of who I was
That count all my wrongs, hold on I must
Holding on to my memories is what keeps me alive
And I will be forced to when her lips leave mine
For one final time, not knowing what will come next
Until the next time we can finally connect
Holding on to every day holding back my tears
Every time I hold you it embodies my biggest fears
That the hands on you one day are not mine
If I had not gotten you, there would be a line
Of so many guys who don't understand
How to speak to you or how to hold your hand
Because it all took time and people are impatient
As their faces put up and their actions then blatent
A disregard for intelligence, and for experience they don't know
Not knowing what no longer shows
What some people see, they then cannot guess
For all that hurts is seen much less
But to know is the privlage, knowing is trust
To keep the trust of knowing her life is something I must
To have her always on my mind and to know so much about her
It let's me know I can trust her and that I should never doubt her
She us the most amazing girl I have ever had the chance to meet
The blessing is being able to greet
Her every day of the week
But that will be gone, the love still so deep
And every day I get to see her in the neat future
Will become a memory, reminding me that I knew her
And soon I will be part of that past that she made
Oh, God, how I wish she could stay...
How I wish it were possible, and that her mom didn't care
That her mom cared more about her happiness and the love we share
That she could see past herself and see how i feel
I don't think it would change it, even if she knew it was real
But one day I will have her daughter forever
And she will live with the fact that we are together
And that we will reach beyond each measure
And that we will be together no matter the displeasure
We will one day be each others, the rules will be gone
And that one day...I will call her mom.
I wait for the future But I live in right now
The time I have with my love, while not aloud
I will push to its limits
To make sure I get the most out of it
And one day, I will he happy with her, and have built a life
Around this friend, companion, love and then wife
And one day I will smile and look back at this poem
Our children will ask what I am reading so I will show them
They might hate it, they might now want to read it
I will stand up, walk in the kitchen until I see it
I will see the girl I wanted for the rest of my life
Worth all of the pain and the strife
She will read it once more, maybe even remember
That one day we both knew we would be together forever
I will kiss her and we will smile back at each other
And I will then be reminded of why all of this time I loved her
And that I always knew that I would
Be there in that house, like I knew I could
With two kids and each other to get through every day
I will look into those eyes and know that some how, some way
My dreams came true, and that I had everything I needed
With all my prayers to God, I begged and pleaded
And I finally got it, my forever at last
And from then on, I was happy with every day that passed...