We could fill an entire library
With the things we never say to each other;
Volumes upon volumes
Of quiet "I'm sorry's" and tear-soaked "I love you's".
I told you once, a year ago
That you are not alone in your pain,
But tears were all you gave me
For revealing my deepest secret.
I promised myself to keep it hidden,
So I didn't have to see you cry.
Perhaps it worked and the memory
Has died, with time and a smile.
I found your drugs a while ago,
Discovered what they were to cure.
I took one out and looked it over,
One half yellow and the other green.
I wondered how such a tiny pill
Could plug the hole inside a heart
Like yours and mine.
I put it back in the bottle and clutched my cross instead.
I vow to remember.
I vow to fight.
I vow to rediscover
How it feels to come out of darkness into light.