Overcoming DEFEAT
I find myself constantly holding back tears
Life it’s a pool of sadness inside of me and it’s about to over flow
At times I can’t breathe and when I do it only pours more tears into the pool
What do you do when your option it to breath or cry?
But crying means that you actually have to feel all the pain that’s been caused
All the hatred that’s manifested inside of you will finally spill out
All the smothered cries and unanswered whys
all the broken glass and memories that are now trash
All the disappointments and misconceptions
Tell me what do you do when your option is to breath or cry?
Sometimes I want to rip out my heart and stomp on it myself
I wish I didn’t have to feel anything else
Sometimes I want to derail and run away
The pain is just manifesting by the day
Sometimes I want to grab a bat
And smash up all of your things for payback
Sometimes I want to go out and find someone else
To replace the gap that you left
Sometimes I want to scream to my dad LOOK WHAT YOU’VE DONE!
Where were you when he broke my heart in two?
You had one job to raise your baby girl
To keep her from the heart ache and coldness of the world
You were suppose to be there
You were suppose to show me that you cared
Now I’m here heartbroken and distraught, with so much weighing me down
But I just can’t give up now
I’m stronger than what the devil tries to make me out to be
God has brought me through some troubling times and I want succumb to defeat
This is just a test of my faith in God
And if the Devil is watching me right now
I want him to know that he has not won
I will be successful and I will keep god at the head of my life
I will continue to pray when it seems nothing is going right
I see him trying to break me and he’s putting in his all
But I want you to know devil… that I will not fall
I might get weak and stumble sometimes
But my god will never leave me and I know this is true
My god will always protect me from all evil caused from you
I know my hear t has been broken but it’s the process of life
My life is far from over … and with all my might... I WILL FIGHT!