Part of me wants to run

Run away, like I would have if he was 

A cave bear a million years ago 

Or the Titanic crashing into my iceberg

Or a truck flying through the air

Run fast and run hard and run far, far away

So he will never find me

Hide as he passes and

Disappear

From him

 

Part of me wants to fight 

Destroy him utterly, like im 1950s

Japan, and he's Pearl Harbor

Like he's a nuclear testing site,

Waiting for my bomb

Fight hard and leave nothing behind me

So he will never get up

Watch him break as

Blood

Falls with his tears

 

Part of me wants to turn back time

Back to when we were happy and

He loved me

I loved him

We loved

Go back to when everything was okay

And wipe the memories of heartbreak

Watch him smile at me

Again

Feel good

 

Part of me wants to heal

To move past what we did

Brush off the broken pieces

Blow away the dust and ashes

Grow again

To remember how to smile

And to smile on my own

Watch him be my 

Friend

And apologize