What's love after high school?

Love in high school wasn't real til fifteen.

It didn't exist until it tore me in half.

To love a boy

so fiercely

and so painlessly

that it meant saying goodbye

to those that didn't understand

losing loved ones and friends

who

can't say my name out loud

or spit it out with venom if they do.

One year til college.

One.

Will a two year infatuation

last?

Will the losses be worth it when I lose again?

Is what I feel love or comfort?

Will I ever feel again?