red wrists
head spinning voices ringing
hating herself more than anything
more than her want to die
more than the weakness that keeps her alive
it only takes more cuts
deeper cuts
and this can all be over
yet the girl who hates herself can not do it
anger courses through
why can she not do it she wonders
this causes more hate
and by habit or anger more cutting
her wrists are painted red
her face painted in smiles
she goes to school
she goes to parties
no one notices that the I am okay's are just I want to die's in disguise
she wants to scream to kick anything to get someone to notice
instead she goes home sits in silence and takes out her friend
another cut for another day gone without help