Relapse
it hurts to say this once again,
but you don’t know the pain that im in.
the pain is in me but you can’t see
there is a way i can show you but
you won’t be proud of me.
i want to use the blade once again
to show you all the pain im in
but if i relapse…my work is gone
i hope you know that you have won
“there are healthier alternatives” you say
but i want to go back to my old ways
i fight the tears and realize i lost,
the pain i was in is now gone.
now it seems that i have won
I’m surprised theres any blood left inside
considering all those nights spent crying
i need to get better,
but not today
i cut and say
there is no hope
i want to die