The Relationship I Thought We Had
The person who protects me from the monsters under my bed
The person who kisses me gently on the head
The person who encouraged me to do sports
Even when I was stumbling on the courts.
This is the relationship that we had
You comforted me when I was sick in bed
“I will never leave your side,” you said.
Buying me a teddy bear when you went out of town
Playing the drums together, making that groovy sound
This is the relationship I thought we had
But then as the years went on, the love started to fade
The loving light was covered by the shade
When the boys were born, the love showing died
The busy lifestyle became your life
This is the relationship we have today
Why did it stop?
Why did it have to change?
Why is it that you’re always acting strange?
You never smile anymore
It’s like between you and me there’s a door
No matter how many times I try to open it
It’s always locked
Do you show love through frustration?
Maybe I need a translation
Because it’s pretty hard to see
That you still love me
You’re supposed to be my dad
But all you do is make me mad or sad
You feed me and clothe me
But that’s not enough
I know you can’t be the perfect Bill Cosby dad
Because you lacked the father you wish you had
So how hard is it to see?
That you can change the cycle with me
You’re stabbing me in the eye and it’s hard to see
That you’re trying to be the dad I want you to be
So stop putting me out in the cold
Before this spirals out of control
But I know you can change to
The person who takes only us two to eat
The person who makes my life feel complete
The person who encourages me at school
The person who trust me without so many rules
This is the relationship I wish we had
The person who takes me on a date
The person who is never late
The person who steals a kiss a night
The person who hugs me oh so tight
This is the relationship I will never forget.