Repeat

Location

house
International blvd
United States
47° 26' 2.2704" N, 122° 17' 43.3572" W

4:30a.m.
GET UP!
Shower,dry,makeup,put on a sweater and jeans and boots
You're beauti....
6:50 a.m.
Wipe tears
7:20 a.m.
Go to school
Eyes..whispers..
"She's chinky, ugly,fat,stupid,a flirt, skanky, slutty, heartless,attention whore,druggie,skipper"
Lunch time
Sit behind the school
Cry..wait.. who's that coming towards me?
PUNCH! SLAP! KICK! HIT!
wipe your tears
Get in the bus. Get off
"LONER! LONER! NO ONE LIKES YOU!"
Lock the door
Look in the mirror
You're ugly. Punch my face. Pass out
Dinner with the family
Shhh everyone's sleep now
RUN! RUN! To the bathroom
THROW UP EVERYTHING!
....I miss you
"Shut up what the fuck do you want!?? Go kill yourself AGAIN!"
I'm stupid for falling hard on a guy who beats me, cheats several times, calling me ugly, fat, stupid.
Why do I still love him
Cut my wrist...oh wait STOP! NOT THERE my dad might see again
Cut my ribs
Swallow a bottle of pills
Lay down........wake up
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This is so sad but it really shows the endless spiral of pain that people get stuck in.:(

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