Running Footprints
My brain doesn’t compute with my heart.
I can feel my blood electrocuting the thought – I want you to leave
You
Really don’t want him to leave
My body jerks, flinching under the 15 layers of emotions I use as makeup
There’s a mask that hides your eyes and distorts you smile
I always believed it rained because Gods soul turned cold
Froze into ice
His heart melted into teardrops falling from the sky
You burn yourself through the night, waiting
The thoughts won’t come out of my body
Conflicted
Trapped
And now you’re on the floor imprisoned by unnamed burdens
It never made sense to be how someone loved me so much
Could walk away, and never look back
I want you to fight like I’m the most important thing
There is nothing glorious about this
There is no tea, no bathtub, no parade
We are all beggars
For some reason my prayers would always end up as questions instead
Because no one would answer them quickly enough
There is a frenzy of fear standing in between
When our paths merge, I am lost.
who was I kidding?
You kept changing the lock and I never found the key
I swam
In the blood of a Saturday night.
Breathed in the ink of your love letter,
and drank your soft, gentle voice.
take down the word goodbye off the wall as we fall.
Hear the bones breaking as we hit bottom
In the darkness i realized
that i got the sight of the stars mixed up for your eyes
Got the brightness of the rising sun
mixed up for your smile
Got an angel mixed up for a fallen soul
We spend our days chasing the snowflakes that never touched the ground
Floating in an endless sea of white and empty.