I'm trying different ways of self medication
To avoid possible suicide fixation
I smoke weed
But I don't show it on my Instagram feed.
I journal in my notebook
So I can take a second look
At the way that I feel
When my thoughts are too real
To bottle up inside my mind
Where I gotta find
Where it all went wrong.
I don't even feel like singing a song
Because singing isn't as fun anymore
When I have too many feelings to pour.
Now I'm on antidepressant pills
To explore different thrills
While maintaining mental stability
And improving physical agility.