If I could find

the right words

I would tell you them

make you understand

make you love me again.

But words fail me

I cannot speak

left unsaid

the greater evil is not knowing.

 

Alas

I give up

move on

pretend to find happiness

and enjoy life

it’s all empty now.

 

When I reach inside of me

I see past the medicated bliss

sorrow remains

longing

hurt.

 

I will not beg for you

for you’ll always refuse

to listen.