So I Work
I work,
Not really at a job
or necessarily every day,
I just work at little side jobs doing physical labor:
Mowing, working on cars, yard work, you name it
I'll do it
But its just a simple slight seduction of a mask I wear
What I really want to do is lay in my bed and sulk,
Not do anything becase there is no motivation to get anything done:
You see,
I work for a different reason then you,
I work to hide my pain and real emotions
My stress and anxiety
My depression...
My depression...
My depression makes me want to sleep
It makes me want to do funny things
Things opposite of working
Things like sleep, sit completely still, do absolutely nothing,
Stair at the ceiling for hours on end
Get lost in how many souls I've hurt
How many times I've messed up
How I always just always mess everything up some way
No matter how hard I try not to
My depression...
My depression...
My depression makes me not want to talk to anybody
It makes me worry about...
Nothingness...
It straps me in a chair, straps me down with barbed wire and feeds me
Every screw up I've ever done:
And when I've had enough,
It forces more down my throat till the sorrow, stress, and anxiety
All starts leaking out my Wrists and thighs like crimson waterfalls...
I've run out of places to relieve the pressure,
The anxiety fills my head and corodes my brain like the rain does
To the statues in New York
So I work,
I hide it,
I keep it a secret and wonder if I could be saved,
So I work...