Speak My Mind
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It's hard to speak my mind. Catch each thought as it bullets through my brain. Too many thoughts crammed inside like those balls in the lottery jackpot machine. Spinning. Flying. Whirling.
College. Soccer. New cleats. Prom. Biomedical engineering. Leaving home. Sweaty palms. My sister. Why did she borrow my combat boots without asking? My brother. Doesn't he get sick of the xbox? AP psych. AP language. Friends. Boyfriend. This weekend's plans. No downtime. Always on the hamster wheel.
Thinking. Planning. Calculating. Always.
Am I good enough? Am I smart enough? Am I fast enough? How do I accomplish all of my heart's desires? I want to save lives as an engineer. I want to make my parents proud. Make myself proud. Live the American Dream. Have it all. Make a difference.
Its hard to speak my mind. When there's so much to think and learn and plan and analyze and discover and fear and hope for and decide. But I believe that if I can pluck out just the right balls from the lottery machine in my mind, I'll hit the jackpot.
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deasadgause
Its hard to speak my mind.
I didn't know being a teenager would be this hard. Everyday wake up with a new task to do I just want a break.
What happen to just being a kid and to not worry about problems, or issues. Never have I been this down.
I miss the days of criss cross applesauce, nap time, and just doing regular stuff. What happen to that? Life change and it sucks now.
Now I have to worry about High School, Quizes, Tests, and other problems. I just wish I can go away on a island and to come back one day with no problems.
Well like adults say life is life! This is the real world and trust me it is cruel!
A kid life is easy don't have to worry about bills, or grades and etc. as a teenager you have to get a job and make sure that your grades are important!
I jsut wish that one day I can just go back in time and do the things that I used to do.
The reality of the world is harsh and people are mean.
No more holding mommy and daddy hand.
This is life and I just want to speak my mind!
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