The Storm Racing Within

Anger rising from within The storm racing inside No longer hiding No longer disguised Confusion scattered around Nothing to do but rebound Hearing two stories Hearing two truths What to do, sit and listen Rise and shout Leaving only doubt Doubting honesty Doubting Truth I dont hear either I dont hear any Hearing from both sides Wanting to believe Cant find the strength Cant find the heart Been hurt so long This only adds o the pain So sick and tired Truth is only desired Its not given Its not offered Knowing this Leaves me bothered I cant choose sides I cant testify I refuse to decide Would rather got to jail or die Family drama is all of this really worth it? Some say it is Some say it isnt Heartbreak by family Tears the soul infinitely I am tired of fighting tired of trying Tried finding truth Making it work Nothing helps nothing works tattered and torn my heart bears no more People see my smile something hiding all the while Acting like Im fine Like Im invincible Emotions race and scream Living out this horrible dream Wont cry, it is weak So hard, not to break Breaking down to the ground What can get it to go away What can make it sway Distancing myself from the drama Breaking apart from the hurt It all comes down to Caring too much about you Caring about those around me Hurts but I cant let it be Filled with regret Someday I will forget One day It will go away.