Sulking at my pity party
Sometimes I try to hard,
other times not enough
But becoming a man on life's
Confusing road is always tough
And I woulda gave up
But I even gave up on that
Something inside me bribes
Me with bein a loser so on track
While still being off track
How does that make sense
But I'm too busy trying to make
Dollars to figure out I'm too dense
Too slow, too lazy, too insecure
To fully
Invest in myself unless its killing
My health like I was its bully
While addictions pull me
Right back in as I leave
Not progressing as summer turns
Like I phone 5, many colors of leaves
And I doubt anyone would grieve
If I were to leave today
So childish I give god the silent
Treatment so I no longer pray
And I'm no stronger today
Then I was last week
I think at 18 I peaked
So Im a myth like gods that are Greek
Floating up shits creek
Dealing with shit as I battle
I'm not even in a boat but still
I hear others bitch there's no paddle
While I straddle my own throat
With my enemy who
Doesn't know why I'm trying to
Best him to killing me, he's confused
But wuts a single dad to do
When he's got nothing left
To pass on to his kid except a bid
In this hell til death
Maybe he'll sell meth
And end with a better job than me
I'm so slow I'm still stuck wondering
Wut a bird has to do with a bee
No wonder I'm smokin trees
And cigarettes then literin
But i been lucky cuz I've gotten away
With murder like Zimmerman
Maybe it's my destiny giving me
The recipe for failure
I don't fit in this world like a skinny
Dudes clothes but the Taylor
Is my jailor, as I get pailer
Binging off coke and e
But the joke is free
Cuz the joke is me so
hopelessly Hopeless
Even my parents are laughin
Sayin to each other in private
We shoulda aborted that one
So as I'm stuck in this rat run
I look around and get pissed
I see other losers like me get
Get a pass like that ass who be
Mayor, rob ford, who I rob
In his ford
For his money stack and crack
And still can't rob afford
Diapers for my son, who
Child services must
Not like to leave his life in the likes
Of this low life but
That's not credit enough
Even for me
Cuz I do everything to make sure
My son is nothing like me
So it's likely that nightly
I might be yelling at him to stop
Babbling non sense like I do
When I'm high, and my final thought
Is tricks is for kids,
that's y the priests are all confused
But no lucky charm is gonna help
Me so I get apple jacked to
Stop myself from goin coo coo
For cocoa puffs I'm so lost
I feel like I'm Chinese driving life's
Road blind folded by floss
And the world won't back off
It's cold like Jack Frost
I'm so depressed
i even cry masterbating using tears to jack off
On lotion it saves me alot
Why did I say that I know
I'm awkward like a Charlie sheen
Interview after binging on blow
And I can say that I'm winning
Cause I technically am
Hands down I win the biggest
Loser but everything that I am
Not made me everything I am
And that's pathetic
But it sounded so much cooler
When fukkin kanye west said it
And my life I'd regret it
If I didn't somehow
Make the most beautiful son with
His bitch mom who is now
Never to be found, but around
She was when I wanted
Her gone, and maybe I'm wrong
But I hope her blonde haunted
House of a head goes red
Like the head of her tampon
After a car goes over her like
A wheelchair that uses. A ramp on
The mall walkway so she couldn't
Walk away anymore
And I wouldn't feel guilty everytime
a suicidal thought knocks at my door
But nobody's home, the lights
Just on
But I'm the only man that don't
consider himself a king but a pawn
So if u see me in a pond
Grabbing ducks to bite em
Leave me alone cuz that's the only
Joy my pathetic life syphons
Loser asshole with a hyphen
Ill never be right in my head
Even my psychiatrist took a try at
It And said I'm better off dead
(It's my party and
Ill sulk if I want to
Sulk if I want to
Sulk if I want to
You
would
sulk
too
If this shit happened to you
Na-na-na-na-na!
P.s. 1980s music quote, extra point!