Take It Back

I'm running, I'm flying, I'm  praying, I'm crying

At last deceit, this is nothing new to me

I've changed in ways you can't imagine

I've done things I'm not sure I regret

I think things are not real

Even though I feel them right under my skin

There's too many lies and I hope that can change that someday

But then again I think, about it 

It just doesn't add up, enough is enough

I feel like I can't breath

Time and time again, the same things keep happening

There's no way to change, everything's same

Since that day

I know it's too much, it's piled up

It seems like there's no end, to this sad beginning

But still I dream

About that moment, about that time

When the world turned upside down, and I began to shine

The sky was clear, The moon was bright

There lay a smile so nice

Never seen before

But that moment hasn't changed the world still is the same

It was a dream all thanks you but you blame it on me

You say I'm false, that I was already broken

That I knew what was to come for me

I'm out of order right? Say nothing to me

Nothing new, everything used

Backed up against the wall

And  it feels so tall,I dare not claim

I know how it ends 

I'm alone, sad like in the beginning

I have no friends, I have no heart, I have no love

I was broken from the start

I have no dreams, I need none

They are the lies, sweet lies

I once was told they could all be true, possible

I know one truth, and too many lies

Can't even count the actual amount and I believed

Whole heartidly, I swore them as my own

And now I'm alone

With the dreams I once known to be true

I regret that moment, I regret that day

I took my first breath into this place

It's not my own, I have no home

Why not leave, it means nothing to me

They say you must listen, They say you need to hear

They say all in due time, but I can't stay here

I want a way out, there's no doubt

I'd take it as soon as you offer it

But you wont, and I can't do it by myself

They say I'm not worthy that its all going down hill

And I'll have the first set on the way down

I have no home, no one to call my own 

But there's me, and that's all I need

Because apparently you can't hear me

You couldn't hear my cries late at night

You couldn't hear my screams to end everything

You couldn't, wouldn't listen to me so I, see I-

I regret, that moment, that second

That I was conceived, of a sick, sad dream now it means nothing to me

You can take it back, and I'll help you carry with that

But please oh please, help me

See why you can't, why you wont do it

It'll only take a second of your busy time

Just draw the line

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