Lately I've been thinking...

Why I see what I be seeing,

Why I dream what I be dreaming,

Feigning for that attention...

That bond.

Wondering why,

My emotions never correspond,

I wanna cry out for help, but

My bain never responfs how it should.

Just wish I could be normal for one day...

Praying for the day the lord takes me away to a better place...

 

Nothing ever correlates to my thoughts and the lessons I've been taught,

How to burry these memories deep down in my soul,

But this sh*t starting to get old quick,

Voices in my head telling me that I should just quit.

It's getting out of contol,

Everyday I'm battling these demons

I'm closer and closer to leavinf this thing that you call life,

Been through a lot I'm so tramutized,

Been told so many lies, 

But these visons got me mezmorized,

Feelings I can no longer hide...

 

These Voices Kill Me Inside Time After Time,

After Time After Time.

I Have Nowhere To Run 

Nobody To Hear Me Out

You Will Never Understand How It Feels To Be Left Out Living In Doubt....

 

Always felt like I was left out of this nescesity,

Pursuit of happiness, if it's a natrual birth-right then,

I huess I'm just unatrual,

 Seeing that my mood swings last longer than my peroid,

I remember I was young and just a kid,

Even then I was unhappy,

Trying to figure out why the worl took place around me...

 

I never liked people..in fact,

I hate them, but

I tolorate them because it's better than being left alone, 

with my thoughts and memories

Feel like I'm trapped outside of reality,

Like everytime I ScReAm for HELP!....

...

I can no longer breathe.

So I stopped

Hoping

Praying

Believing ..

That one day someone will rescue me.

I know it's up to me..

I just don't wanna unlock those memories I've faught so hard to block out.

Even though the random flash backs will never stop..

 

Im.

Trapped.

Thinking.