i wake up every morning wondering why my lungs only receive polluted air

My esophagus rejects the poisonous food you always try to shove down my throat and i cry

i cry because i'm starving of love, i cry because i lack the sweet air that you use to give, the good healthy food you use to prepare and i am dying inside

My heart no longer pumps blood but the salty river of my tears and i am thirsty

Dehydrated from the overdose of sodium hydroxide, dying from the poisonous air i'm constantly inhaling and i wonder, will i even live to gamble the next day

There is a sun after every moon but it is pointless if i can't even see the sunrise beyond my slowly closing eyelids

For i am suffering, suffering the difficult choice of choosing

i want my sunlight but i don't want to burn, i want my moon but i don't want the cold, i want you but i also want love,

And you have forgotten the rules and the know abouts

i am constantly chaining myself to a stone cold wall that has potential to

be a bright piece of home but does not choose to be for reasons beyond my comprehension

i cry out from my cell at that wall hoping it will crack in my response and to my surprise it does but only for a moment does it listen's to my voice for soon it is resealing itself

Now finally I choose to unchain myself and rise up to the fountain that will eternally stop the quiche of my thirst and you listen

Listen to my footsteps leaving that wall that all of a sudden begins to break down and crumble but it is too late

I've made a choice to stop compromising with the death and blind I’ve made a choice to prepare for the wall that will build my home