I think i only wanted you because i didn't want myself

It was easier for me to give into your big eyes

To burrow my head into your wide chest

It was less work for me to hide my fingers in the spaces between yours

All of this was easier than to love myself

Than to look at myself in the mirror and realize i needed to make a change

It was easier to hide than to dig up the roots of my feelings

I’d rather have you pick things up for me eternally than use my own hands and risk confronting the problem

When you pulled me close

When you kissed my lips

When you held on to me

When you fought with me

When you acted like you cared ‘

I imagined it was love

And imagined that by having you in my life, a person who loved me

Well, i imagined that this was loving myself.