Hi

It’s been a few months since I told people 

I wanted to kill myself 

And hey look I’m still here 

I found myself having a few happy days

Even on the crap days

In those days I lost friends 

Who well weren’t friends 

I guess they were dead ends 

But In those days I talked to those 

Worth making amends 

Hey it’s crazy that I still hate me 

But I love me 

And what scares me

  Is that people find depression to be a trend

What’s so lit about looking in the mirror 

Saying I wanna die 

Isn’t that borderline terror?

But hey it’s been a few months since I said I wanted to kill myself 

And I have real

Ones asking about my health 

I do admit I have my thoughts of death

Crossing my mind in stealth 

But hey I feel like in the shadow

I need to push towards a light

And writing has become my beacon 

The outlet I was seeking 

I can talk it all out into one vision

To nullify wanting a demise 

And hey maybe I can be someone’s outlet 

But first I must focus on my on cords connecting 

Until I can hotspot better directions