Waiting

My biggest regret was waiting

Wait till you get married 

Wait to have sex

Wait in line until it’s your turn

But life doesn’t wait for you!

The love of my life left me

Because I wanted to wait

I hate the way my brain thinks

Maybe it’s the disorder I have 

or the fear of being lead astray

I decided to wait and I hate that I let you slip through my finger like the strings tying my shoe. 

Sweet blue eyed boy I miss you and I never got to tell you I love you because I waited and I hate it because you left me here and I was going to go tell you but I chose to wait

And now everything I anticipated it has fell to gray

Should I join you and jump in a ditch or pop pills to I can’t fill my face 

I wish you were here to numb the pain

the day you left it rained

maybe that’s your way of showing

me you were in pain.

So I waited and the sun came and I hope you are Ok!

RIP ERB