We Are Something
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I sit and I hold your fire
I pause for the joy I get
When I grasp you
The way you sparkle in light
They see you as discomfort
I see you as sentiment
You allow me to feel alive
You give me a sense of control
It’s not like adoring you
Is proscribed,
There is no law saying
That taking refuge in
Pain produced by my own hand
Is to some degree
A thing that could throw
Me in prison,
‘Cause you’re not
You are far from it
Calling you my savour
Is an insult to some
But for many it is
The truth.
I am not the only one
Who goes through this
I am what you call
A partner…
I am a partner in the craft
Of self-harm
We do not need a degree
We do not need some compensation offer
Gives us detachment and you shall see
That we don’t bleed for attention
But we bleed for realization
That maybe we have some life
Left in us to carry on
That maybe we can be something
To someone
And that maybe we are here
For a greater purpose than pain
Maybe we can change the world
Maybe we can truly prove you
Wrong, that we really are
Something special
But the again…
The world doesn’t notice
They don’t see
They don’t care
They don’t know what we are
Heck we don’t even know.
We could have the world
Ahead of us in arms reach
But because of the pain
We can’t reach it
We are knotted to a chair
With chains and cloth
You beat us and distress us
Tell us everything we are not
And nothing we are
You tell us our mistakes and failures
As if we don’t know them enough
That they aren’t the reason
For our cuts and burns and bruises
That our failures have brought us death
And the only way to succeed is for
Us to let the world win
But we won’t anymore
We are too strong in a sense
That we can inflict pain on ourselves
And feel nothing
That we have made it this long despite
You who told us to die or be happy
We won’t let you take our life
We need to prove to ourselves
That we are something
You can’t fuckin tell me
That I am some joke
Because I don’t think
Self-harm is funny
And that is what I am made of
I can cover it up with as much
Clothing as I want
But I will always know
What I’m hiding,
You can see it if you look in my eyes.
The fear I burry beneath the blood
At 3am , the pain
I conceal with scars.
But you are to carless to notice
You look at my smile
And never check the
Blood stained tiles.
But it is okay,
Me and my fellow fighters,
We believe we are something
But it takes the effort we don’t have.
So maybe you should
Take a second look
Stare longer into our eyes
And read the story written on our arms
And thighs and hips and we cry…
You know our secret but you look at
As if it was just a head cold
But it’s not.
Depression is like Cancer.
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I really like this because you describe depression and self harm in a very subtle, yet effective way. It's definitely powerful. I like that you make it known how little respect suicide and self-harm gets. It's just as serious as any physical illness, if anything, it is a physical illnesss. It's really good.