The swing set is unused 

Tea sets untouched 

my childhood left 

I'm bemused 

it took a while 

to realize it was gone

I was too busy 

growing up 

there is no going back 

only forwards 

suddenly...

it's not all about you

things don't go your way 

there much to accomplish 

In such a little day

people break your heart 

things all apart 

I can't slack off

Anymore 

I can't hold grudges 

Anymore 

I can't pass blame 

Anymore 

I am not a child

Anymore

You are not here

Anymore 

You can't comfort me

Anymore 

I can't mourn 

Anymore 

there's no time

Anymore 

things change, people come and go 

forevermore 

Everything cost something 

you can't have it all

Even when you fall,

you have to choose 

when there is everything to loose

life is all up to you

I choose to smile 

I choose not to waste my time hating

I choose happiness 

I choose forgiveness 

I chose moving on 

I chose not to be stepped upon 

I chose shutting doors

I chose to wipe my blood of the floor

I do love you, I do 

But I can't choose you 

not at the cost of myself

I realized Adulthood's residency 

when I learned, 

my life was up to only me