Where Did I Go?

by GraceKA

October 6, 2019

Must I live like this every day? Must I stand on the

Broken ground? Must I see what everyone sees? Must I hear my motivation

Slip away? Must I...

Must I be me?

What is "Me"?

Do I know this person who is a figment of

A glitch on a screen

In the dead of night

As you sleep? Is "Me" a glitch on a screen in the dead of night?

Do i understand what peace is? Do I know what it

Means? Must I hear my motivation scream out before I faint? It is "Me"

Now. It is me.

I left myself in the dark and I see no escape from my own selflessness.

"It's to the point of insanity," they say.

This wonderful torture surrounds me as I think, as I

Speak, as I sing, as I delve into

Insanity.

I do live. I see it in the

Depths of my porcelain, crippled, constant and tender heart.

I do see it. It is there. I am somewhere. But

Not here.

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a_dark_darknessDec 26, 2019

<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">You must live in some way every day, <p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">but not necessarily on broken ground.<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">You do not need to see what what everyone sees,<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">motivation will not slip away. You get to...<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">you get to be you. <p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);"> <p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">What is "you"?<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">Who is this person who fills up<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">the bright giant screen<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">in the life of night<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">as the world speaks? Are "you" the light in the life of night? <p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">Do you understand what peace is? Do you give peace its<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">meaning? Do you get to hear your motivation yelp before you leap? <p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">This is "you"<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">Now. This is you.<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);"> <p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">You once left your self in the dark but you saw an escape from your selfishness<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">"It's to the point of joy," they say<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">This wonderful bliss surrounds you as you think, as you<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">speak, as you sign, as you delve into<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">joy.<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">You do live. You see it in the <p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">depths of your clear, mobile, constant and tender heat. <p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">You do see it. It is there. You are somewhere. You<p style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; outline: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; font-size: 14px; line-height: inherit; font-family: ITCFranklinGothicStd-Book, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; color: rgb(37, 37, 37);">are here.