Wishing Upon a Rainbow and a Star

Wishing upon a colorful rainbow and a shinning star
As I walk through life it seems too far
Makes my heart fill up with tears and no pride
For my steps I walk are not often in stride
God save me from this horrible gut feeling I often deal with inside
My depression gets to me as if there’s no hope to my answers
My legs want to run but all I can do is walk and wonder
My hands tremble with unforeseen loneliness
My eyes are red with tears falling to the ground with helplessness
I at times will have a fixed stare into the distance
Wondering why I’m here and what part of life I’m missing
I often ask myself what is wrong with me
Where do I go from here and what will I see
I don’t like my inner self
I can’t bring myself to like my outer self
Wondering if my water glass is half full or half empty
My whole body feels so tired and achy
What have I done to my soul
Why can’t I seem to get through this and flow
Like the wind sends the air right through my body
I at times feel so alone and groggy
I’m unsure if I can go on but I’ll try
Hoping these tears fall away I won’t again cry
Wishing upon a colorful rainbow and a shinning star
To bring me happiness where I can run far
To make each of my steps I walk in stride
With my heart full of love and once again pride

Written and Copyrights By: Deanna M. Culver
May 6, 2013