Won't Let Go, but can you leave?

I hate those kinds of things things that bring up other stupidity I should move on but I can't Not everyone does it right away So why should I have to be the one ? Why ?? Why ?? Am I allowed to ruin that living..no it's not just one person but many Can I ruin them? Just like how I was ruined? Would that be ok? I don't want to let it go... Why do I have too?? He didn't let go!! So why do I have too??? I want to ruin them... Something, no A part of me was also ruined... So can I just ... Can both of them die??? ONE occurrance was never supposed to happen so what makes it ok for 2 of them??!!! the worst part is that I'm defenseless, and they're loved and protected... I'm suffering their consequences So can I just stop ?? Can someone rip it away ??? Please, someone, please help me Help me flood me flood my mind Help me fill it with better life Help me think of better thoughts Help me laugh it all off Help me smile and grow up Help me become strong Help me forgive them Help them because I can't show them mercy....