If I knew how

I would be better

By now

You once

Looked at me

And with tears in your eyes

You asked me

To leave it be

This wound

Infecting me

You begged me

To just let it go

So you coud hold

Onto something real

So you would know

 

I love you 

More than I can say

And if today

Was my last day

I would spend it

Loving you

The way I should've

All these years

All this time

I would hold you close

I would lose myself

In your skin

The way it feels

To come alive within

Someone else's warmth and love

Only you

Ever made me

Feel this way

 

I hope

I pray

This isn't it

Our last day

I pray

You understood

The words I forgot to say

I hope

You look at me

And see something you can hold

I pray

That even after all this pain

You stay

You wrap me up

Pull me inside

Where I've been dying to get to

And I pray

You know

I love you so much

And that

It was never you

Hurting me

 

The monsters

In my dreams

Was and is

Always me

The monster

Under my bed

Is the memories

Locked in my head

I can't forget

The demons

I dance with

Is all me

The things

I can't unsee

Or undo

But it was never you

All you ever did

Was love me

Just right

So please know

That wherever this may go

Just know

You are the reason

I never let go