You were gone
falling into old habits again
it’s so quiet my thought of sin
now tears of red drip down my skin
that made nine, now this for ten.
for you had left us way back when
‘they were only babies, no memories’ has been said by him
but i do remember when you were not there
my games, my school, my troubles, my tears you did not hear
because you were gone.
my first fight, called into school- you didn’t come
that i felt cruel
my first goal from twenty yards out
your back was turned and away you walked
i did not pout.
i’ll make you proud one day i said.
but that too was all in my head.
now i’m here crying these tears.
of read and clear running everywhere
for you know not what i do at night
and i hide them, as not to be in plain sight
you never noticed, you never do.
when all the knives and blades gone too
this night will end and some will wake
but few are lucky enough that death does take
that last breath gone, with no more to follow
but what about those who’s hearts have hollowed?
no not dead inside, with depression covered eyes,
but those who have the heart of ice?
he never saw he shed a tear
for i do not care of him or fear-
fear his word ive grown to despise
for now i know they are only lies-
lies of ‘i cant’ and i’im sorry dear’
for all they do is take this relationship and tear-
tear the trust, and the love- which i never knew-
for i’ve been alone with no man to trust
so i- tonight shall be a lucky one too
with my last breath to be a word of profane
’ a pitiful man, had everyone to love
but all thy did was shove and shove’
now jackass go away, and leave me in peace
dying tonight.. for i need some sleep.
now all has left believing her not
the cold of the razor against her skin- hot
1-2-3 and she pressed deep
my last night caused a smile to keep-
on her face and then the lights dimmed
good night all, good night world she sung in a hymn.