Be Strong

Be Strong Stay Strong For years I have seen you weakened For years I have longed for you in my life For years I listened and hoped in your ideas, promises, only to be hurt time and time only to trust less and less only to hope less and less We blamed all this on him We kept trying For years you have seen me hurt For years you have longed for me in your life For years you have told me excuses only to be hurt time and time only to be trusted less and less only to be You blamed all this on him Now Now we hope we struggle I see you getting stronger We feel Now we grow stronger and weaker Now we can no longer blame him he is powerless or is he? We struggle We want I want you to be STRONG I want you in our lives I want what you say to be true No more excuses No more lies But you can’t You can’t prove I should trust you You keep trying But can you trust yourself? You say I hate him Really I hate what he has done I hate all the broken promises I hate all the selfishness I hate all the hurt, he has caused you and because of that I hurt you more I want to stop hurting you but I can’t until his power is gone then I hope I can trust you my problem not yours Do you still hope to be in my life or are we not worth it? Are you so weak that you can’t hope? Are we wrong in asking you to be strong? Are we wrong asking you to stop giving to him? Are we wrong asking you to not forgive him again? You have made excuses for him all my life how does he get to have the trump cards of excuses? how does he get to hide behind a disease? When he dies will it end will there be closure? Will the circling continue? Will the anger top? Will you forgive us or is that only for him? Why Be Strong, Stay strong? Because maybe if that little bit of strength makes it Someday there will be no more excuses- only time to do what we have been saying we wanted. Will it be too late? All my life I have wanted to defend my mother from my father. I can’t believe that even when Alzheimer’s has entered his house that when his house is no longer his home that when he is in a lock down that when I no longer have to try to reason with him because he can’t that I still cannot PROTECT my mother from my father. Please take my father I want time with my mother. Please don’t be too late. There isn’t much left of her to give - why does he get so much? Please don’t be late I want some left for me. I love you mom. Be strong Stay strong