CONTROLLED ME

I held on so tight to someone that the person was my breath without then I was outta breath and with them I felt as if I could live forever.
I basically would do anything just to have that person 10 times as close to me.
Hopping they would keep me alive to wide up 6 foot deep .
For them to be the person who dug me in a grave for me to seat and rot in .. 
No remorse to picture the ending of my life story.
 The distance left me cold ,then the lack of conversation just made me burn in a ice cold pit of regret .
 
To think on how I loved such a piece of shit!!! 
That made my love run thin .
HEY I NEED A AIR PUMP
because you made my heart stop then and continue to make me become stone as your eyes distend on me. 
Weaken to my knees as such a degree that I wanted to slap you but damn I Guess I deserve a slap to my face.
Settling for someone who couldn't even whip my face. As I melted from the tears I once cried.
To questions life!!
 Because I always had you to observe .
Your opinion matter and I disagreed with my myself because I didn't feel worthy which  left me defeated at the wire of your strings.YOU CONTROL ME MORE THEN MY LEGS HAD THE TIME TO WALK AWAY FROM THE IMPATIENT DESIRE YOU WIPED TO SEE.
 A lie that my lips kiss you and left a mark on how childish love may seem .I Was the kid plagiarize by those color and songs that my imagination once dream of a life with you .
CONTROLLED by those games and fast balls you threw. 
The more I crave for that affection the more I fade away because you wasn't there to be able to complete me but leave me empty and ask again that you wanted more. WHAT DID I HAVE TO GIVE !!
I was left dead in a world where I had nothing to live for because that person I held on to left me so bad dropped me and left me to scream!!! That once I look in the mirror I saw that scare that person left me and instead of break down I left myself whole. 
I refused to bow down to a demon who feed of fear to tangled me up and made me lie like Pinocchio because I wanted to feel something real.
BUT I was stopped because you held the clock. 
That one person had my whole life in there hands and they didn't even know how much they dragged me down to there level of failure making me seem like a disappointment .
The power they had was because I gave it to them once the words I trust you came out..
 the more I realized that they left me is why It's so hard for me to break free from the chains they locked on me.
It Made me miss my chance at freedom. The more I see how hard it is to gain the wings I placed in a person hands who didn't protect them like they promise. 
BLINDING me to see good  though the present because all I  see is that person leaving no matter how still they stood in front of me .
My eyes saw that person leaving. 
SO YOU KNOW WHAT I HAD ENOUGH SO I CUT THOSE STRINGS. BECAUSE YOU WILL NOT CONTROL ME ANYMORE!!!!!! NOW I STAND ON MY OWN MEANS.!!!
 
This poem is about: 
Me
My family
My community
My country
Our world

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powerful.imani

DON'T LET NO RELATIONSHIP CONTROL YOU NO FRIENDSHIP TO CONTROL

YOU BECAUSE ONCE YOU CUT THOSE STRINGS YOU WILL SPREAD YOUR WINGS TO FREEDOM

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