You said

You promised

(Cross your heart

and hope to die)

That you would never tell

That I was the one who took the last cookie

that day

in Kindergarten

Because we were

best friends

We grew up

and in 3rd grade

I promised

(Cross my heart

and hope to die)

that I wouldn’t tell

Brandon that you liked him

Because boys were supposed to have cooties

and we were best friends

In seventh grade

You promised

(Cross your heart

and hope to die)

That you wouldn't tell

I quit eating

because Tessie

called me fat

Because

thats what best friends do

In tenth grade

I promised

(Cross my heart

and hope to die)

that I wouldnt tell

that you started cutting

because Brandon called you ugly

That same year

I promised

(Once again

cross my heart

and hope to die)

not to tell

that you wanted to die

you quit keeping my secrets.

that year

I didn’t think

thats what best friends were supposed to do

They all knew

about my refusal to eat

so I talked to a nice lady every day

but I never told her about you

and your shaking hands

pale skin

sad eyes

scarred wrists

and anger at the world

So they never really knew

why

I was so sad

When You died

I cried

and tried to die too

because we were supposed to be best friends

but you died

with a note that said

I crossed my heart

and died.