Do You Remember?
Do you remember when I was small and frail
And you wanted nothing more than to see me fail
Remember when I was a threat
Because I passed our mother's tests
You must remember your anger
That spread through you like a cancer
Does that ring a bell?
How about when you made my life a living hell?
Do you remember bashing my head against the ground
When no one else was around
Remember the power you felt
Whipping me with the cruel words of your belt
You must remember the pain we both suffered
At the hands of our mother
Do you remember when I was mild and meek
And you made my mind weak
Remember the games you played
Day after day
You must remember how you tried with all your might
To make me cry myself to sleep at night
You always succeeded
Like my silent sobbing was the only thing you needed
Do you remember when you said I was a failure of a child
And how its pain made you smile
Remember the tears you cried
Every time I didn't believe your lies
You must remember when I screamed “I'd Rather Be Dead”
And you told me “Go right on ahead”
Do you remember the pain you caused
And putting my happiness on pause
Remember the manipulation
And the intimidation
You must remember my pleas
To just leave me be
Does that ring a bell
Because you pulled me into this hell
I was lucky to escape
Given everything that was at stake
I was blamed
For your ever growing pains.
Even after all I suffered
And all the times you threw me into the gutter,
I can't hate you
Despite all you've put me through
I am grateful
Rather than hateful
My pain has made me into who I am today
And I wouldn't trade that away
I am stronger
Now that you're in my life no longer
I use your unrealistic expectations
As my motivation
To be a better person
And to help ease my burdens
I can't change my past
And this pain won't last
Better days are ahead
When you won't be inside my head
I can see a light at the end of the tunnel
An end to my struggles
Today I am tall and mighty
While you are frail and tiny
I am a phoenix rising from the ashes
Of a life once tragic.