To him

So my hands are shaking violently and the wind is giving me terrible chills and the Sun is burning my skin but l feel cold But l must and l will tell you this Dear husband, how is your soul? doesn't it feel so dark? does it have as many scars of pain as you left imprinted on my tender skin? how is your stone heart? does at least an inch have some mercy? and wish to run out for me Dear husband long gone, do you ever sit in your cell and wish for my embrace? or a stray thought of me makes you wish you would break those chains and have my neck? do you still think l have a lesson to be taught? or do you want to tell me sorry? But where did we go so wrong? lt used to be all kisses under setting Sun with us towering over the beautiful horizon lt used to be embraces and warmth and joint souls then one day just one you raised that hand and you never stopped you hit until the bones broke,then the soul died and the heart wanted you no more You were once my dear husband and now you are my most wanted convict But l need some answers where did we fall off the track? You know even as l write to you l still feel the sting of the slaps as they landed l still hear myself scream but you went on and on l still go cold in my tracks at the thought of seeing you again Dear husband,may God be merciful and save me from ever seeing you again maybe then l will heal and wounds will close and memory erase the nightmare l once called life But l need the answers for the questions are overwhelming with no answers. and l want closure,dear 'husband'.