So my hands are shaking violently
and the wind is giving me terrible chills
and the Sun is burning my skin but l feel cold
But l must and l will tell you this

Dear husband,
how is your soul?
doesn't it feel so dark?
does it have as many scars of pain as you left imprinted on my tender skin?
how is your stone heart?
does at least an inch have some mercy?
and wish to run out for me

Dear husband long gone,
do you ever sit in your cell
and wish for my embrace?
or a stray thought of me
makes you wish you would break those chains and have my neck?
do you still think l have a lesson to be taught?
or do you want to tell me sorry?

But where did we go so wrong?
lt used to be all kisses under setting Sun
with us towering over the beautiful horizon
lt used to be embraces and warmth and joint souls
then one day just one you raised that hand
and you never stopped
you hit until the bones broke,then the soul died and the heart wanted you no more

You were once my dear husband
and now you are my most wanted convict
But l need some answers
where did we fall off the track?

You know even as l write to you
l still feel the sting of the slaps as they landed
l still hear myself scream but you went on and on
l still go cold in my tracks at the thought of seeing you again
Dear husband,may God be merciful and save me from ever seeing you again
maybe then l will heal
and wounds will close and memory erase
the nightmare l once called life
But l need the answers
for the questions are overwhelming
with no answers.
and l want closure,dear 'husband'.