What if i told you i'm not okay?
That i'm depressed.
How would you react?
If I told you I almost killed myself today.
That i took that bottle of nail polish remover and dumped it down the drain
I want nothing more than to reach out to someone
But i don't know how to
I'm scared to.
Wrapped up in my own fear and isolation
Drowning in my own pain
Would you believe me if I told you I was unhappy?
That these smiles are fake?
Can i trust you to take my hand and comfort me?
Tell me it's okay and help me feel better?
I want to trust you
Because i could really use someone right now.
Someone to take me in there arms
Whisper there condolence in my ear
Run their fingers through my hair
Someone i feel safe with
But the chipped walls of my bedroom scream the truth
The scars on my arm burn a hole in my heart
There is no one.
No one i can trust with these secrets
No one that can take this burden from me
No one to hold me when I cry.
The only person that will ever be there is myself
But i don't feel strong enough to carry this pain
I just want to be saved.