I feel my chest being crushed ever so slowly.
Pushing harder and slower. Farther and lower.
My heart throbs like a beating drum before battle.
It pounds so hard in my throat that I cant breath, to where I’m gasping for air.
And then I feel a nothingnesss there, all at the same time.
This pain and numbness is so surreal.
to feel everything and nothing simultaneously overwhelms my soul.
My hands fly to my face to catch the river flowing down it
And claw at my throat as I choke on my own breath
I spill out the only words I can mutter through all the crying and I plead for something or someone to cling to.
But no one is there.
No one is ever there.