Suffocated
Location
Life hurts
Just to live in it makes me wonder why?
Why do we enjoy the good moments so much
When the bad ones are so bad
And likewise;
Why do we feel the bad moments are the end?
When the good ones make them worth living
I miss feeling like that
I miss being real
I miss breathing
The sadness engulfs me
But I pull away
Why be sad with all these happy people around me
Don’t ruin their day
Be good
Be nice
Do as you’re told
Though hard as I may try, it takes over
I try to grasp anything
Anything in which can save me
But I fall
I always fall
Do you fall as much as I do?
Again I try my hardest, but it hurts
I try to breathe
When I take a test, I try to breathe
When I smoke, I try to breathe
When I drink, I try to breathe
But the air fills my lungs
As much as a fire gets lit during the pouring
Help, but it doesn’t come
Wish as I may
The sadness gets to you
It gets to everyone
But the only time you will be able to breathe
Is when you let the pain seep away
When you understand what is actually wrong
When you allow yourself to be there in the moment
When you allow yourself to take a test
To smoke
To drink
This is when you will be able to breathe
Accept your situation
Be alone
Find your will to breathe
The only way that cold winter air
Is ever going to get to your lungs
Is to let yourself have it
Let yourself understand
That life screws you up sometimes
But you can always choose
If you want to breathe