That's Just What You Do
Sometimes I thought about packing my things
taking my cat
loading my truck
and disappearing
Like a magician and his cheap tricks, I couldn’t stay disappeared long
Guilt would find me
you would find me
I would lay down and keep lying
Sometimes I looked at oncoming traffic and wondered
only for an instant
how quickly my brain would shut down
Would it wait until I felt pain for the sake of punishment
or would it erase me the instant I made my choice
No
eyes on the road
I'm not the kind of person
who could hurt someone for my own selfish loss
There are people who really love her
who would have taken her place in an instant
Who would sit at her bedside day and night until
they couldn’t keep their eyes open
and then they would sleep beside her
right there in the hospital
Because that’s just what you do
that's just what you do when you love somebody
isn't it?
That's just what you do
And the moment I realized you wouldn't
I was gone.