wiper blades
rain slips down my windshield
like a broken mirror
endless skewed versions of everything
are reflected back to me
I forgot how to turn on the wipers
they’re only supposed to run on high
fwip-fwip, fwip-fwip, fwip-fwip
my car has anxiety too
I fumble, turn dials, and search
for an answer I’ll remember
the wipers run on interval
(they haven’t done that in three years)
click—not fast enough
click—too quick
every swipe is a “he loves me”
or a “where did the affection go?”
I ask myself too many questions
I drive with no music
I am not in a love song mood
I ask myself why I ask so much
about why I have so many doubts
of course, I know that you love me
but I’ve come to find that
my rational thought is too much
like my wiper blades:
hard to find
slow to turn on
and three years without function