As fierce as it feels it fades away

The moment you see, it wilts to gray

Its like bein’ a billionair that abruptly goes under

The second you feel the thunder

Lighting strikes, breaks your heart

Have to restart

 

Freshmen year was a blur

Curiosity

Separate beings for sure

I lead my own life,

Simplicity  

But just like a hurricane it hit me, I wanted you to be with me

You hurt me

But in mere weeks I felt free

Recovery

 

Sophomore year is like a disease

Torturing me

Thought I wanted to love for the first time

Stupidity

I gave you my heart that I had forever concealed

But like superman you broke my force field

I don’t want you but I have no other option

You’re my addiction

But I need to be brave

Atrocity

People say to move on

Hypocrisy

 

My faith keeps me bonded to you

I tried to move on but that simply unfroze me

I hated kissing him

I only dreamed of you

I was numb

 

I want you

I know you want me too

We are supposed to be

But doubts creep in and slowly kill me

 

But when I ask the Lord I must believe and not doubt

The one who doubts is like a wave in the sea

Blown away n’ off route

 

 

These days I’m wondering why I even write  

What’s these torn down memories supposed to do for me

I go around chasin prayin a new man will come to me

But that new one could be the old one you see

See the Lord captures the mind and penetrates the soul

Whether he cares at first or now its not parole

You still go ‘round doin the same old sh*t with new hope for a lil' bit

And grow into a person you aint never seen before

Shed off the leather skin cracked with discontent

And put on new life that is more than sufficient

 

Someday you will discover

Always and forever

My love for you is so true

I’d do absolutely anything for you

7 times 77

From here to Heaven